Monday, August 16, 2010

Feel the need

Always feel the need to write something but never know what to write. Afraid it's gonna come down too cheesy or too boring... but since no one is reading, why do i care?

It was a blast last weekend. I probably had spent way too much time with Andrew and now I started to feel the urge of his leaving and a little bit of sad/touching/god knows whatever feeling that is. When we talked about it in the car by the highway, I know I was a little disappointed. I wanted to hear something more cheerful or at least hopeful or positive, not the bold heavy truth I already know, but it's OK i guess. Lets face it, it only has been 3 weeks that we have met each other, and has been dating for a week and half. Although the feeling is mutual (hopefully), the time is simply too short for us to get to anywhere near a stabilized relationship. I probably already looking quite desperate than I actually am, which I definitely don't want to, but I do want to move forward. I don't get as many feed back like I would like to, which makes me keeps wondering. It took me a long time to find someone as great as Andrew, smart, respectful, charming and all the good stuff. I'm afraid I might loose him, after all, I am not a Korean, I am not a Canadian, I am 6 years older than him, I am kinda stuck in Halifax... 

Oh well, let's be positive for now, we've got a true connection at least, and I think we both want to work this out... I am not a pessimist after all, I am not a optimist either, but looking at the bright side, we still have a few days left and I'm gonna be at the alehouse all the way through his going away party... We will see how things turn out...

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