What Inception really is

It is an overly complicated movie with a few subtle traces here and there that doesn't really make much sense. But let's try to simplify it to one basic theme: You won't know if you are living in a dream.

This, seems rather new but actually old concept has been addressed in the first Matrix movie. Neo took a pill to wake up to realize what was real and what was dream, Cobb and other folks just need a kick to get back to the last level. Yes the layered dream is the piece of puzzle that making everything seem so complicated. If you have the ability of following the layers of dreams and don't let the bad plot distract you from the logic, you should end up where I am now, wondering why most people think this is a great movie??

I mean, Inception is a successful movie for sure. It raises many discussion because of the complexity and ambiguity, but that doesn't make it a great movie. My definition of a great movie should consists great plot, precise logic, good acting and stunning presentation. Inception fails in 2 out of 4 key pieces.

1. The plot: Tell me what is this movie's main thread? Is that Cobb's redemption and reunion with his kids; or is the deal that Cobb had with Santo; or is Author's found of his father's true last will? It doesn't have an overall thread that's connecting all pieces.

2. The logic: I can't say the movie doesn't make sense, actually most part of it makes perfect sense, e.g. the layered dreams, but it is way too confusing for most audience, and a lot of subtle details don't have a solid back up theory in this movie. e.g. the spintop.

3. I found the acting is mediocre with Leonardo being the one and only exception. But even him couldn't break through from the signature low voice mumbling from time to time.

4. The presentation was pretty good. I really enjoyed the scene that Paris folds into a huge cube, and the ruins collapsing into the ocean. The visually was great in general.

Overall, Inception is a successful movie in terms of making fuss and earning money at the same time. But it fails to be a great hit like Batman The Dark Knight simply because it is over complicated. People will be talking about it because it's complexity and ambiguity for a while, and then, it will be forgotten.

Robbie Williams feat Gary Barlow – Shame

Well there’s three versions of this story mine, yours and then the truth
And we can put it down to circumstance, our childhood, then our youth
Out of some sentimental gain I wanted you to feel my pain, but it came back return to sender
I read your mind and tried to call, my tears could fill the Albert Hall, is this the sound of sweet surrender?

What a shame we never listened
I told you through the television
And all that went away was the price we paid
People spend a lifetime this way
Oh what a shame.

So I got busy throwing everybody underneath the bus
And with your poster 30 foot at the back of Toys-R-Us
I wrote a letter in my mind, but the words were so unkind, about a man I can’t remember
I don’t recall the reasons why, I must have meant them at the time, is this the sound of sweet surrender?

What a shame we never listened
I told you through the television
And all that went away was the price we paid
People spend a lifetime this way
And that’s how they stay
Oh what a shame.

Words come easy, when they’re true
Words come easy, when they’re true

So I got busy throwing everybody underneath the bus
And with your poster 30 foot at the back of Toys-R-Us
Now we can put it down to circumstance, our childhood then our youth.

What a shame we never listened
I told you through the television
And all that went away was the price we paid
People spend a lifetime this way
And that’s how they stay
Oh what a shame.

People spend a lifetime this way
Oh what a shame
Such a shame, what a shame

weird dream

I usually don't dream at all. I mostly just hit the pillow and wake up 6, 7 hours later with no memory of what-so-ever happened during my sleep. But last night, maybe the fact I slept in the guest room first then moved to my bed, cause me to dream a little, and of course, it was about Andrew. Grrr... I am still all over him :-/

The memory is vague now. I seem to remember we went to a electronics market or something like that, and there were dealers of pornographic DVDs, and there was this guy I seem to have seen somewhere looking for gay porn DVD... awkward... Andrew was with me in my dream, and in the dream, he drove all the way back from New York City to see me. Well I was really happy in the dream but it's really weird tho, because one, i usually don't dream about anything; two, Andrew is in Seoul, not NYC; and three, I wasn't ecstatic about the dream...

Oh well it's just a dream I suppose, doesn't mean anything real. But I am happy that when I wake up this morning, I saw Andrew has left a message on my wall :) yes he is checking on me as well, while I do check on him regularly (might be a little too often).

:)

Pause

It's a rather magical state... when you are in this state, you feel the things flow by rather quickly but you stay where you are, like an observer. stay still, and watch things go by in each of their own different way.

I have put a pause on the love part of my life, updated my profile on MH and POF to indicate that I am not looking for anything other than chatting and friends. Well I'm not humble enough to close my accounts coz I still go on them when I am bored just to check out people, but I won't do anything else like I use to. So far no one has questions me about this yet. I do expect people get annoyed and even question my purpose of putting it out there. Yeah it maybe a little goof or even stupid to some people. It doesn't really make much sense to me either actually but the feeling I have with Andrew kinda drives me to do it.

I don't know what exactly I should do at this point other than keep my nose clean and head straight, but I think I am okay.

Tonight

An empty street, an empty house

A hole inside my heart

I'm all alone, the rooms are getting smaller.

I wonder how, I wonder why, I wonder where they are

The days we had, the songs we sang together.

Aug 20, 2010, 7:20PM, Halifax Stanfield International Airport. You put a hole in my heart...

The last one stand

People are leaving me, yeah i mean physically/geographically they are leaving, at the same time... And seems like everyone is extremely busy, including me. I don't wanna point fingers but something just doesn't make sense any more... maybe just to me they aren't, coz I am the last one stand.

Things between me and Andrew are getting a little weird in the last few days.

1, we are not moving in the direction that I want. that's understandable since he didn't want to start something from the beginning and I sorta pushed it over to where we are (were), and that was right before the party in my house. So to everyone who has asked me "is that your boyfriend?" I said yes. Now I kinda feel regretting about it since he is not so keen on that and want to take things slow... well it make sense and for a totally valid reason - bad timing, but still, I certainly feel the motion of my leaning forward and his leaning back, which irritates me quite a bit actually.

2, it is inevitable that we are going to be apart very soon, in 2 days... and everyone knows the long distance thing could be a dreaded nightmare to any relationship (if you consider this as a relationship, maybe not). We are going to keep in touch for sure, and hopefully, finger crossed, see each other in Asia early next year. Either I go to Korea or he goes to China for a short visit and pick up the fire, but it's just a plan for now, and chances are it's not happening. I am not sure at this moment but there's hope, and I am a optimal possibilitist most of the times. Things are not gonna be on hold for me nor for him, I'd like to have a chat and establish/find a common ground for both of us sometime before Friday night.

3, people keep telling me that I am crazy wanting things go seriously with Andrew. I know they are 100% genuine concerns for my benefit, but only I know what I have been through, no one else knows. Although I might be a little bit too keen on getting into a real relationship with a guy I just met not even a month ago, I am okay, mentally and physically. Andrew seem to be a really great guy, I'd like to keep things moving forward with him for at least a little longer and see how we are doing and where we wanna be. I don't want to hear anything like he is leaving or he is too young whatever. Those words do nothing but pollute my head.

4, there are some little things here and there I notice and irritates me sometimes, I don't wanna list them because they are too little and I don't keep them in mind for very long, and they could be part of a larger picture. Another reason being they are not always from Andrew so I guess they are no biggie anyway.

This probably gonna suck if this doesn't work out.

Feel the need

Always feel the need to write something but never know what to write. Afraid it's gonna come down too cheesy or too boring... but since no one is reading, why do i care?

It was a blast last weekend. I probably had spent way too much time with Andrew and now I started to feel the urge of his leaving and a little bit of sad/touching/god knows whatever feeling that is. When we talked about it in the car by the highway, I know I was a little disappointed. I wanted to hear something more cheerful or at least hopeful or positive, not the bold heavy truth I already know, but it's OK i guess. Lets face it, it only has been 3 weeks that we have met each other, and has been dating for a week and half. Although the feeling is mutual (hopefully), the time is simply too short for us to get to anywhere near a stabilized relationship. I probably already looking quite desperate than I actually am, which I definitely don't want to, but I do want to move forward. I don't get as many feed back like I would like to, which makes me keeps wondering. It took me a long time to find someone as great as Andrew, smart, respectful, charming and all the good stuff. I'm afraid I might loose him, after all, I am not a Korean, I am not a Canadian, I am 6 years older than him, I am kinda stuck in Halifax... 

Oh well, let's be positive for now, we've got a true connection at least, and I think we both want to work this out... I am not a pessimist after all, I am not a optimist either, but looking at the bright side, we still have a few days left and I'm gonna be at the alehouse all the way through his going away party... We will see how things turn out...