Toronto Trip

So this is gonna be my first business trip ever... I am moderately excited about it, not too too too excited coz I've been in Toronto many times, but this time I will spend much longer there than ever. Well... I don't really know what I am gonna do over there, I will be working during the day for sure, but at night and weekend I have enough time to check out the malls, Blore street, and Ikea.

Well I need to give my friends a heads up for sure. Janet and Jing, Michael and Nancy... anyone else? I don't know... I kinda wanna save some time for myself, rent a car in the weekend and explore the city a bit more.

It can be better if RCS can go with me :(

heart break

that was the feeling i haven't felt for long time. really. I don't like it but it feel so real. I can still feel the real me inside of the deep bottom of my heart.

I wished i was the other one in your weeding, i even dreamed about this stupid thing the night before i drove to SJ. I lied to myself, i was pretend that i was happy, well...i guess i was really happy for you, but inside i can feel my little pain. i can feel it.

yes, I really do love you. Q.

Long time no update

It has been a pretty long time since last time i updated my second important blog, well...maybe third... there are a lot of changes in my life, but all changes are good changes, i hope...

I broke up with A now i am really back to my single happy bachelor life. Even my friends say i am now more fun to be with than before. I hook up with my friends regularly again, Fred and Halifax ones, and QY in Montreal... lol

My work went pretty smoothly too, the current project will go live in a week, and i will be reassigned to another project with already a lot of resrouces involoved but they are still seeking to suck people in. Well... I wanted to have a change in my work but i didn't wanna get in to this big group of work as of now. but anyway, it was not my decision and seems like i can only accept this decision.... hope everything goes well.

Oh another big thing is i got my medical exam done which means i will probably become an immigrant in 2 or 3 months...at least the landing notice. That really a good move, this will straight up many annoying things in my life, such as finance, such as car, such as house etc.

I am looking to move to Vancouver, really i wanna go there. think of the weather, think of the view, think of the population, think of the activities... i will probably live my life a lot more excited in there once i have as many friends as i have in halifax.

yeah yeah i know the first few months maybe even half yeah would be boring since i don't know no one in vancouver as of now... but i am sure i will make friends pretty quick. There is a large chinese population in there, as well as gay guys. I am not totally hot according to most people but i am pretty sure i fall in to the cute catigory...anyway...i don't intend to make my life fulfilled with gay guys, but i will find a nice guy to fall in love with i think.

already too far from here... I need to get the book from Sam and read it a bit tonite, prepare for the exam. sigh...when am i gonna be at a easier spot to make my life more enjoyable?

Getting Married? Not for me!

I heard of too many ppl getting married these days. First is Rennie and Andrew, then Xue Yang and Wang Weilin, now even the guy who is younger than me, Zhao Ming is getting married soon. OMG OMG OMG...what the heck surround me is happening. I am NOT getting married any time soon! NOT FOR ME NO!

I know I am already in a hard-to-keep relationship now, it's not she is a bad girl or whatever, it's just my personality of myself wanna being a free guy, a free gay guy maybe?

Right...that's the conflict within me. I've never denied my inside but I admit I have a problem living totallt out to everyone. I know this world is not too too too friendly to who I am really yet, and my parents, I can't imangine they are disppointed on me. Even this morning when i was chatting with my dad and he mentioned their birthday I didn't even sent off a message. I felt so bad, heart broken. If there are only two people in the world I care about, they are my mom and dad. I love them so much that I don't even know how deep it is. I will scrifice my personaly life for them if they really demond. I mean it.

Anyway, back to the topic of getting married...it's purely a personal choice I believe. People get married when they feel right, I guess this kind of feel will not happen to me any time soon. It has never been easier to be a person who lives in two faces, and it's never gonna be easier for me.

Meet The New iPod Family

iPod touch looks sweet... Only if I don't already have two iPods... :(

But I will get one !

BioShock

This is gonna be one of the best games this year, and probably it will be the best single play game of all times, well...at least till 2008.
Gotta run to futureshop to get my copy, along with The Darkness for the combined deal + price match with Bestbuy. I was actually thinking of slack off for today to get the game... but I didn't do it coz I won't be home alone and I need to go to Immi NS to get the certificate.

Fabolous Uncommon Non-windows My Another Computer

Fabolous Uncommon Non-windows My Another Computer

Wonderful vacation, with Joe

I haven't been such happy for quite a long time. I mean really...the past weekend was almost the happest time in about a year.

Joe is leaving, after all, he is leaving canada for good. I am not complaining anything here coz that's his decision and he wanted to go back to hk always, from the first day i got to know him. To be honest, he means the same thing to me as K used to...well. K is still my best friend no doubt, and Joe will be my best friend for sure. I am so happy that we can actually spend two and half days together and did so much fun stuff.

We went to whale watching, although didn't see anything.
We went to Parlee beach, totally fun.
We went to Magic Mountain, totally hot.
We went to Odell park barbeque, totally full.

I already forget how good time can be when you are with the person you really love. Feel the sweetness when we are mistaken by Pizza Delight waitress, feel the happyness when we slides down the scray water slide, feel the warm when about to left and hug eachother... I will miss you Joe, and I will remember you, keep the time we spend together (not too many) in my heart.

Now you know easy to be a bad driver

24 hrs...only 24 hrs...then you crushed the brand-new-shiny-with-no-what-so-ever-single-scrach car

STUPID. SO STUPID.

Sigh...what a pathetic mazda...Remember the day, Friday, July 13, 2007.

Good Movies of 2007 (2)

transformers
Originally uploaded by BrianDotNet

Transformers
5 star recommanded

Good movies of 2007 (1)

die hard
Originally uploaded by BrianDotNet

Live Free or Die Hard
4.5 star Recommanded

bad news

1, we are not getting the FX45 we wanted.
2, she is going to have a surgery.
3, I am not really happy these days for being in this relationship.

June 1 - Children's day - not so happy

As I remembered, it's an international holiday for kids all over the world, but i don't see any difference here in Halifax. Well...I never noticed any difference since I am in Canada.

OK here is why i am not so happy...

Last night I've been told the dream of the SUV will probably wake up with nothing in hand. It's not the first time I've been disappointed with such free stuff, but I am still disappointed a bit. Seems like it applies to everything happens around me - If it's not yours, no matter how close it was, no matter how much u think of it, it's not yours. Similar thing happened to the PS3 - it was only a PS3, I can afford one for no problem at all so i accepted it - this time it's not that simple. It's not fair at all. I can't possibly afford a car like that, it's an FX45.

Actually it's not my, it's gonna be under her name. Well, I have no complain about that coz it's from her uncle. But we've done so much around it: for choosing the modle, we've test driven Q7, FX35, we've been to the dealers a lot; we spend a lot of money and time for her to get her driver's license; we even planed to go to the states with that SUV although we rented a van instead.; the insurance has been applied to the car with both name on it; even the plate number is choosen... I mean, behind these efforts, no one can simply take it away with out even asking for our idea. I don't really care about having a suv or not, I can buy one myself, or if I want one really badly and if I am a bastard, I can ask my parents to buy one for me. The thing is, I feel that both of us have been treated unfairly. It's just not OK.

Alright, she and I will fight for this. We have tons of reason why that car should stay in Halifax (or shipped to Halifax). If it is going to go to the states, ok, i will buy it, at no second thought, even if i can barely afford it.

Living in the world as a man, I will be fighting with whoever treat me unfairly.

A few things

1. My application of NSNP has been approved, fially, after half a year.
2. Bought an Xbox 360 Elite, which turn out to be not so good in quality.
3. Had to deal with both Logitech and Canada Post on the previous noted Keyboard
4. Called home on Mother's Day, knowing mom is doing not so good on her ankle :(
5. Another crew of friends graduated, CONGRATULATIONS. One of them is comming to HFX.
6. Call of Duty 2 is a really good/fustating/enjoyable game, looking for 3.

Driver Trainer

It's the second time that I teach one how to drive. Can feel the danger when sitting in a car that is not well operated. I am a good driver, although got ticketed several times, but still, i believe my driving skill is pretty decent. K said I am a good teacher, hopefully all my students can be safe for all time being.

Personality

I never thought that I have a bad personality, but as these days, I've realized that humanity has its dark side, and it's in everyone's soul.

Back from China

Well...I didn't have much time to update this blog while i was in china but now i am back in office again.

I had a really really nice trip, indeed. Even I felt that I didn't wanna come back to Halifax again on my last day in Beijing. It was only a flash in my thought, quick, and then disappeared.

On the flight back to Canada, I traveled with a girl I know from Fred but now she is in Calgary. I may go to Calgary later, or Vancouver, or even the states, but who knows. I still love my job here, so many things are going on in this big world, I am just one of them.

Suddenly I felt I have nothing in the near future to expect to come...No more vacations in 2007, no more gardgets to buy...Well, maybe the only thing I can expect is the proposed US trip, if the SUV will arrive as expected. Silly A, u made a big mistake... Anyway, as I knew long ago, when she said she would get me a ps3 before offcial launch day, if it is not yours, it is not. Vehicle is the same. Anyway, I am not a person who wanna live on someone else. If FX45 is not mine this time, I will buy one for myself when I go to another city.

I didn't buy too much stuff for myself, a starbucks mug, two pairs of shoes, a few tops and miscellaneous stuff. I got a new electronic shaver from my dad, and a new digital camera as well. I got a new watch but I don't know if I am gonna put it on. It is too dressy. Maybe I should keep it for later.

Luggages arrived last night, finally. I wasn't worrying about those, but I wanna share those paper cuttings with my colleagues. They are beautifulpaper cuttings although they are not hand made ones, which could be freaking expensive. Hope all my colleagues loves those crafts, I think they do, and they loves me too. LOL.

Tired...

I felt a bit getting tired of the relationship thing...maybe i am really bored of seeing the same face over and over again for long, or maybe i just miss the time i being alone by myself.
I am so tired these days, from work, and from the relationship. I am getting excited day by day coz i will go home soon, and the point is, i will have some my own time in China.
I miss a lot of my past... just miss

the deepest thing in the world

I just can't stop thinking of my friends. They are all my most presures treasure in my life. I can live with out a lover, i mean seriously i can, but i can't suvive without friends for a day.

Now I am in Halifax the bigger town, where I don't have lots of friend I've been with for more than 5 years. I do have Matt and Yuan, they are all super good people. I love them. But friends is a life time long stuff that can't be easily forgot. Like Keeyo and me, 6 years is only like a flash. I still remember all the good times and bad ones as well. I know i am somehow different from ordinary guys, although i am not 100% sure about this myself now, but I know I will love him for my life, as he loves me as his best of the best friend too.

I met with Joe on Saturday night. He is still the same charming boy as in my memory, but things changed around him. i can feel that under his always smiling face, his heart is full of thinking, and some sadness too. I don't know exactly what happened to him while i was gone. He is now with Amanda, and for that, he is isolated by others. Joe is not a bad person, he will never hurt any one he love, but he is frigile inside too. I told him not to be too nice to everyone coz people will ask for more. Try to be a tough one, but be nice to people who love u. It wasn't the first time i heard people say that Joe and I are (looking) similar, I do think me and him share alot of in personality, and i was really happy that he thinks the same too. He could have become Keeyo second if we had enough time together. I think I love you guys too much than I can handle.

I will keep Keeyo and Joe as my best friends ever. True friends are not see though eyes, but hearts. It is the deepest thing in the world.

Feel bad about myself. really really bad

i just know... I am actually one of those people I used to look down upon.

I'm so sorry.

Never forgive myself of doing this.

Chirstmas and New Year vacation is gone

Spend a long vacation in Hfx. Actually this is the first long vacation I spend in hfx. Last time I took a week off went to New York with Matt and Yuan. But it was fun.

I had many friends came over, from Fred and Montreal and Saint John. Parties, shoppings, games...everyday started from noon, such a lazy life style.

I didn't buy too much stuff for myself. except some games, cheap ones. top spin 2, rager racer 6, halo, fable. I bought two memory cards too, from bestbuy but one of them is not working good now...:( those memory cards are for psp and ds, for Alice in another way. she likes to play Nintendogs, and some cute psp games. I don't usually play those portable consoles that much. What else did i buy? I can't really remember, oh, some gap and club monaco clothing. and a levis denim. these days it was me who always spend money on food, next month i gotta watch out for my cridet card usage.

Alice got that sharp tv for both of us, and she is going to get a nice SUV I like from her uncle. She is a regular girl but she has amazing relatives. Charming.

I love that TV, but it could be better if i buy it myself. I don't really like to get stuff from people, but since it's under her name, I don't mind that much. Anyway, now my ps3 can expose its full power.

I still feel lazy on the second day back to work, and I still sleep late at night, almost 1am every night. this is no good, I should get back to my regular sleep hr asap.

Gotta play some soccer tonite. I felt good last week back to soccer field, but I hate to play with that indian asshole. Tonite i will put on white, ignore him.