feel tired and pathetic

I don't wanna do this any more
I don't wanna do this any more
I don't wanna do this any more

These days are my most busy days after i came in T4G...I talk so much with my team mate, and I actually don't agree on many stuff he decides but I felt my knowledge is far from sharp to defeat his point of view most of time. As Jeff told me, this is more a learning opportunity to me than anything else. I think he is right, and I did learn a lot from Darrel, but I do think Stuart is a much smarter man.

Damn I am so into this relationship now. I don't know what to do to have total control on everything. As I typed this, I thought that I am the same type of person as Mel and Brian. Who knows...

Just called A, actually she called me after we talked a bit on MSN, she is quite lazy i would say, lol, too lazy to type, but she is a good person, a good girl, a good one who deserve a lot of love. I never thought that I would rather go for a girl like her before this fall, but now, I don't know if I can still stay alive with out think about her... I really don't know what I want now... :( Pathetic me...