feel lazy

I just feel lazy this week, every morning i wanna stay in the bed for a little while, which resulted in late for the bus this morning...So i got to work at 9, half hour later than usual. No big deal, I'm still early enough to not be the last one in the office. But i don't have good mood to work either. This kind of mood lasts even since i was back from NYC. Maybe I shouldn't take that vacation at all...makes me feel lazy again, no motivate to work...

Anyway, although I told Johnny I hurt my toe last sunday, and I told him I can't play for him this Sunday, but i decided to help him out. I will risk my nail and see what i can do for him. Matt won't understand this. I admit that I am a emotional person sometimes, and I am generally good to my friends, well... to those I like. Johnny is not just a friend to me, I like him, or maybe i should say i loved him. He is not a really good looking guy, and he is not the kind of person i was/am looking for, but i like him. I don't even know why...it just the feel that i can't deny. Well, too bad Joe won't go, I can't see him in SJ this weekend. I think i have already walked out from him. We are good friends. but i'm not sure if we are as good as my other friends. I don't know. For me, Joe is still my Mr.s right, and still mysterious. Maybe this increases the good feeling that I have about him.

Ok gotta go now. Tonite Matt, me, Yuan, Erin, Johnson and his wife are going to the Moon festival party. Hope it is gonna be a good one.