I'm treating this blog as my diary, write down some none sense words for myself, or...do i write them down for anyone? even myself don't usually look back what i've written. Is this the way bolg should be? I don't know.
I feel more empty now than ever after I moved to my new apartment. I missed soccer for more than 3 weeks, I now live farther from Matt, I went out with friends every weekends but I still feel empty inside. Luo wrote me an email last weekend told me that he missed me a lot. yeah I know we were in deep love a yeah before. actrully today is our Anniversary, the big day of our short relationship. I actrully do miss you too, a little.
Maybe every man is a playboy inside. likes to watch beautiful girls (boys) , just like me. After I broke up with Luo this spring, I quickly fall in the emotion of love, with the fabolus HK boylish Joe Well...it's not so smooth as always. he turn out to be my good friend now, like QY in the past. I like this kind of change, it's not what i really wanted, it's not what i dreamed about, but it could be the best ending for both me and him. Friends may last forever, lovers? I don't know.
When I played soccer last weekend after we came back from Shediac exausted camping trip, I saw a new face in the Dal soccer crew. I don't know anything about him yet, even his name. But he got nice body and face, and a little bit bad boy looking. Not as perfect as Joe but yeah he is my type. I tried to talk to him but he doesn't seem to pay attention. Anyway, I feel myself changed a lot after come to Canada. Or maybe I did not change at all, it's just I did not discover the playboy side of myself in the past.
Although I'm not sure about many stuff, but there's one thing I'm really sure about.
I WON'T GET MARRIED BEFORE I'M 30.