here i am

OK, so here is the real beginning, i wish i can continue on it thereafter... I know i am quite easy to be affected by ppl i care about, but from deep inside, i'm still myself. it's just many of you don't know the true me.

Anyway, I woke up early this morning. I don't know why i lost sleep for a bit last night but i still woke up at 6:15am, with out anyone turn on the annoying fan in the bathroom. Darren talked to me but i did not hear him clearly. Could be complaining about my getting earlier than him, and I took the bathroom.

I finally got my hair cut last day, finally. Actrully i can't stand it for two weeks but I was thinking of getting it in Trade Secret in Fred, but i was too late on Saturday...guess i always make something later than it suppose to be, and it's always not way too late, just several mins late. This is really a bad habit of me. I will quit it for sure, hopefully without other ppl's help. I am the kind of person who don't want ppl's help most of the time. Even Jeff Smith remembers that I said that is one of my weakness and could be the greatest one...

Need to be happier now, actrully i am. just talked with sam on msn. he said he lost his passion too...so guess it's not only my problem but a common one. I would like to be the same as other ppl sometimes, but it also means no real good solution for the problem. guess I need to work harder, not at workplace only but in my life too. thinking of going out for some exercise after work. maybe run for a while. used to run a lot in my high school, after classes, with some friends...all the past.

yeah, it is the music i listened on the bus today that recalled my old time, from Robbie Williams... I like him.