My car...sigh...

I wasn't intend to be lazy, but i do get up later than the first few weeks. I need to keep up a bit but i don't want to. Feel sleepy, so sleepy this morning... i almost felt into sleep when i wait for visual studio to open up on the virtural machine. No mood to do stuff, but have to. I'm a bit stressed.

My car is having problem as well. I think it's because the struts are too old and need to be maintained/replaced. and somework need to be done to my steering wheel, too. I was soo pissed off by my car. I don't want to and i don't have much money to put on cars right now. Lots of stuff to buy/pay. sigh...but i can't leave it there. I thought about sell it last night. Maybe that is a good idea, before it goes completely down.

Bad mood...

should i be glad? should i be happy? should i be mad? should i be sad?
I don't know...

England won, I argued with my best friend. Joe wrote a sad entry, I felt emptyed.
I wish I can have you.

Another rainny day, another dark day, another work day, another lonely day.
I only want to sleep over all these.

People...be smart...

I don't mean to be offensive, but sometimes, some people do give me the feeling that they are stupid. like this one, my land lord...OK don't blame me about ur missing file. I did not know what u have done. What i did was just press ctrl+s which saves the file, if you deleted that file after i was gone, it is all your business. I don't usually get mad at ppl but it doesn't mean that i'm not tired of stupid stuff.

Bought a jacket, nice one, "nice" price as well, from Victorinox. Cost me 130 + tax which is almost the most expensive piece that i bought in Canada. But i do need one. Its look and quanlity are superb. The style falls between formal and casual, a complement for my wardrobe. But my iPod can't fin in the "personal device" pocket in that jacket, maybe i am going to buy a nano. My iPod photo is a little big indeed. Well...I will wait and see. Maybe I am going to buy myself a nice birthday gift.

Speaking about my birthday, yeah it is not too far away. I'm going to turn into my 24th year of my life. I laughed at Nancy last night for kidding about she is one year older than me now...actrully there are only three months to go. OMG, I'm already 24, no girlfriend, no partner, no nothing... I do have my Mustang, and some digital toys. What should be my next target? I am going to figure out an anwser to this very good question for myself.

I bought a black short too, also it is from Victorinox, 40 bucks plus tax. I did not intend to buy more clothes before last night...ok, those are the gift for my first pay in T4G, good excuse. lol.

Don't let me down England

England, you really let me down...40 years, now it's the time to break the myth, and it's at the last minute, u crushed yourself...

I've been loving you for almost 10 years, since i started to watch soccer, since i started to play, since i was still young and have ensuthiasm about many things, which i may already lost most of them but the one about soccer...Please, don't let me down any more...

Joe Cole, you are the man of the match. look at ur move, pass, shot, defence... everything is perfect except the result of the match. But u can do nothing more about it as well, soccer meant to be team play, one man can be a sinner sometimes, but one man can not save the whole team.

Gerrard, you changed my point of view of Liverpool, I will start to watch Liverpool later on. If you were on the field from the beginning, there should be more goals and more brilliant passes. Now i see you are becomming the core of the midfield of England, after David Beckham.

Rooney, you are still young, you still have lots of time and oppotinuties. Work on your skills, use ur strong body, you may not be as good as Ronaldinio, but you could be the next Gascoigne. I have high expectation on you.

David Beckham, Michael Owen, Peter Crouch, Ashly Cole, Rio Ferdinand... all of you are good, but not excellent. For those who are old, maybe it's time to think about leaving. For those who are still young, way to go...

Robinson, you just suck! You can't do a thing! I don't wanna ever see you again in the field! Go home, don't ruin England...

England, I hate that I love you.

Soccer weekend

Did not do much this weekend but soccer stuff. really, it is a soccer weekend for me.

I abanded the oppotinute to go to toronto for soccer...yeah part of the many reasons. Anyway, i did not go. if there was someone going with me, i would change my idea for sure but no one is thre unforturantly.

Soccer was fun, i played with some canadian...yeah maybe they are not local ppl. They are good, better than me. I wanna play more with ppl like them. Playing with those lazy old Dal ppl will only make me more and more lazy to play, and won't improve myself much. I plan to bring my soccer shoes with me to work from next week. I will go to dal after work to see if i can find some ppl to play for a while. Oh i did hurt my right foot this time. coudl be someone stepped on my big toe. but i did not realized it until i took shower last night. it's not getting hurt...Summer is on it's way, i wish my toe won't look too bad with sandals on. Had a big dinner with Johnson + wife, and Matthew. Say happy birthday to Johnson. Thinking that you are actrully much older than me, wish u won't get too old to communicate with. lol.

I went to the Bayer's business park with my new roommate on Friday... I was totally unexpected that he will dress like that... It's not really crappy if those clothes were worn tidy. But he just looked so so so so sooooo crappy. Anyway, i felt regreted to ask him to go out, and i will definitly think twice next time when i ask him out.

Lazy

I think weather is a big factor of the many things that can affect my mood. When it's wet and dark, i don't wanna do anything. Last day when i off work i felt so sleepy on the bus. I did not do too much at work. tried out NAnt only, and the rest time are all devoted to World Cup, which i shouldn't do at work... but I just have nothing to do really...just being lazy.

I found out that i am actrully not the only one who cares about the match. Stuart was watching the game too. He was so funny...he left his TV on, and had his webcamera pointing to the TV at home. Then when the time comes, he started a video conversation with his TV. Almost laugh out. I then told him TVAnts, he managed to find a Dutch channel brodcasting the game live.

England made me so so sooo worried last day when i was watching the game. I don't like their performance. David Beckham was great. Gerrard was good too. I don't like Peter Crouch. He is so tall and so skinning, no good skill on both head and feet. wondering why he can stick on the field for 90 mins. England got the best midfield ever this year, but their forward just sucks...Don't let me down, England. I'm not expecting too much, just a semi-final...

Oh it was sooooo windylast night. I feel a bit scared. But this morning it's fine again, wish the sunshine will last until the weekend. I miss the soccer field alot. I will go out for running tonite again, with eating nothing this time. The food almost killed me last time, stomac hurt. I should be insist on doing some push ups everyday. I did 30 this morning, was wondering how could i do 40 at Joe's place...Thinking of finding a place with Luke together. To save some, and to have somewhere feel like home. Wish he can be a good roommate. Old, but good.

Not too late.

I know it's already Thu but still, i wanna place something here before i go to my bed.

I did go out to run for about 15 mins. it has been a very long time since last time i was running outside without the soccer ball. it wasn't that fun as described by Joe, but i do feel good about it. I think i will go out to run from time to time. Especially in the days that i'm lack of sports. I wish i can live in a nice apt where there is a small gym in it so that i can run and do some weight exercise even the weather is wet.

I was quite happy about the new roommate, although he is much older than i am...actrully he is only 6 years younger than my father, i should call him uncle indeed. But he seems like a nice person, he does not talk to me like he is a senior, and i talked alot with him. Luke. I just don't like the name, lol. no reason for that but i just don't feel good about the name itself.

oh i went to futureshop to return the digital camcorder last night, sorry futureshop. :P after that i went to winners... typical me... i was looking, just looking, and tried several tops. I really like the orange jacket, it's 69 dollors, but it looks pretty good on me except the size is a bit baggy for my body. and the black DKNY tshirt...it's not my daily style but it looks pretty nice. The nike long sleeve track top kinda fits my taste, but i guess i won't be wearing it too much if i buy it. I end up with buying nothing. btw i think i really like bright colors recently, like lime green, orange etc. I wanted to buy an orange nike cap too, which is 12 bucks. I did not take it but i may go back later. that is not expensive and i like it.
There is one thing i need to do tonite but i forgot to do it. Now i don't really have much time for it. I think i become a bit forgetful these days. I need to take some note from now on, like a todo list.

here i am

OK, so here is the real beginning, i wish i can continue on it thereafter... I know i am quite easy to be affected by ppl i care about, but from deep inside, i'm still myself. it's just many of you don't know the true me.

Anyway, I woke up early this morning. I don't know why i lost sleep for a bit last night but i still woke up at 6:15am, with out anyone turn on the annoying fan in the bathroom. Darren talked to me but i did not hear him clearly. Could be complaining about my getting earlier than him, and I took the bathroom.

I finally got my hair cut last day, finally. Actrully i can't stand it for two weeks but I was thinking of getting it in Trade Secret in Fred, but i was too late on Saturday...guess i always make something later than it suppose to be, and it's always not way too late, just several mins late. This is really a bad habit of me. I will quit it for sure, hopefully without other ppl's help. I am the kind of person who don't want ppl's help most of the time. Even Jeff Smith remembers that I said that is one of my weakness and could be the greatest one...

Need to be happier now, actrully i am. just talked with sam on msn. he said he lost his passion too...so guess it's not only my problem but a common one. I would like to be the same as other ppl sometimes, but it also means no real good solution for the problem. guess I need to work harder, not at workplace only but in my life too. thinking of going out for some exercise after work. maybe run for a while. used to run a lot in my high school, after classes, with some friends...all the past.

yeah, it is the music i listened on the bus today that recalled my old time, from Robbie Williams... I like him.