bad news

1, we are not getting the FX45 we wanted.
2, she is going to have a surgery.
3, I am not really happy these days for being in this relationship.

June 1 - Children's day - not so happy

As I remembered, it's an international holiday for kids all over the world, but i don't see any difference here in Halifax. Well...I never noticed any difference since I am in Canada.

OK here is why i am not so happy...

Last night I've been told the dream of the SUV will probably wake up with nothing in hand. It's not the first time I've been disappointed with such free stuff, but I am still disappointed a bit. Seems like it applies to everything happens around me - If it's not yours, no matter how close it was, no matter how much u think of it, it's not yours. Similar thing happened to the PS3 - it was only a PS3, I can afford one for no problem at all so i accepted it - this time it's not that simple. It's not fair at all. I can't possibly afford a car like that, it's an FX45.

Actually it's not my, it's gonna be under her name. Well, I have no complain about that coz it's from her uncle. But we've done so much around it: for choosing the modle, we've test driven Q7, FX35, we've been to the dealers a lot; we spend a lot of money and time for her to get her driver's license; we even planed to go to the states with that SUV although we rented a van instead.; the insurance has been applied to the car with both name on it; even the plate number is choosen... I mean, behind these efforts, no one can simply take it away with out even asking for our idea. I don't really care about having a suv or not, I can buy one myself, or if I want one really badly and if I am a bastard, I can ask my parents to buy one for me. The thing is, I feel that both of us have been treated unfairly. It's just not OK.

Alright, she and I will fight for this. We have tons of reason why that car should stay in Halifax (or shipped to Halifax). If it is going to go to the states, ok, i will buy it, at no second thought, even if i can barely afford it.

Living in the world as a man, I will be fighting with whoever treat me unfairly.

A few things

1. My application of NSNP has been approved, fially, after half a year.
2. Bought an Xbox 360 Elite, which turn out to be not so good in quality.
3. Had to deal with both Logitech and Canada Post on the previous noted Keyboard
4. Called home on Mother's Day, knowing mom is doing not so good on her ankle :(
5. Another crew of friends graduated, CONGRATULATIONS. One of them is comming to HFX.
6. Call of Duty 2 is a really good/fustating/enjoyable game, looking for 3.

Driver Trainer

It's the second time that I teach one how to drive. Can feel the danger when sitting in a car that is not well operated. I am a good driver, although got ticketed several times, but still, i believe my driving skill is pretty decent. K said I am a good teacher, hopefully all my students can be safe for all time being.

Personality

I never thought that I have a bad personality, but as these days, I've realized that humanity has its dark side, and it's in everyone's soul.

Back from China

Well...I didn't have much time to update this blog while i was in china but now i am back in office again.

I had a really really nice trip, indeed. Even I felt that I didn't wanna come back to Halifax again on my last day in Beijing. It was only a flash in my thought, quick, and then disappeared.

On the flight back to Canada, I traveled with a girl I know from Fred but now she is in Calgary. I may go to Calgary later, or Vancouver, or even the states, but who knows. I still love my job here, so many things are going on in this big world, I am just one of them.

Suddenly I felt I have nothing in the near future to expect to come...No more vacations in 2007, no more gardgets to buy...Well, maybe the only thing I can expect is the proposed US trip, if the SUV will arrive as expected. Silly A, u made a big mistake... Anyway, as I knew long ago, when she said she would get me a ps3 before offcial launch day, if it is not yours, it is not. Vehicle is the same. Anyway, I am not a person who wanna live on someone else. If FX45 is not mine this time, I will buy one for myself when I go to another city.

I didn't buy too much stuff for myself, a starbucks mug, two pairs of shoes, a few tops and miscellaneous stuff. I got a new electronic shaver from my dad, and a new digital camera as well. I got a new watch but I don't know if I am gonna put it on. It is too dressy. Maybe I should keep it for later.

Luggages arrived last night, finally. I wasn't worrying about those, but I wanna share those paper cuttings with my colleagues. They are beautifulpaper cuttings although they are not hand made ones, which could be freaking expensive. Hope all my colleagues loves those crafts, I think they do, and they loves me too. LOL.

Tired...

I felt a bit getting tired of the relationship thing...maybe i am really bored of seeing the same face over and over again for long, or maybe i just miss the time i being alone by myself.
I am so tired these days, from work, and from the relationship. I am getting excited day by day coz i will go home soon, and the point is, i will have some my own time in China.
I miss a lot of my past... just miss

the deepest thing in the world

I just can't stop thinking of my friends. They are all my most presures treasure in my life. I can live with out a lover, i mean seriously i can, but i can't suvive without friends for a day.

Now I am in Halifax the bigger town, where I don't have lots of friend I've been with for more than 5 years. I do have Matt and Yuan, they are all super good people. I love them. But friends is a life time long stuff that can't be easily forgot. Like Keeyo and me, 6 years is only like a flash. I still remember all the good times and bad ones as well. I know i am somehow different from ordinary guys, although i am not 100% sure about this myself now, but I know I will love him for my life, as he loves me as his best of the best friend too.

I met with Joe on Saturday night. He is still the same charming boy as in my memory, but things changed around him. i can feel that under his always smiling face, his heart is full of thinking, and some sadness too. I don't know exactly what happened to him while i was gone. He is now with Amanda, and for that, he is isolated by others. Joe is not a bad person, he will never hurt any one he love, but he is frigile inside too. I told him not to be too nice to everyone coz people will ask for more. Try to be a tough one, but be nice to people who love u. It wasn't the first time i heard people say that Joe and I are (looking) similar, I do think me and him share alot of in personality, and i was really happy that he thinks the same too. He could have become Keeyo second if we had enough time together. I think I love you guys too much than I can handle.

I will keep Keeyo and Joe as my best friends ever. True friends are not see though eyes, but hearts. It is the deepest thing in the world.

Feel bad about myself. really really bad

i just know... I am actually one of those people I used to look down upon.

I'm so sorry.

Never forgive myself of doing this.

Chirstmas and New Year vacation is gone

Spend a long vacation in Hfx. Actually this is the first long vacation I spend in hfx. Last time I took a week off went to New York with Matt and Yuan. But it was fun.

I had many friends came over, from Fred and Montreal and Saint John. Parties, shoppings, games...everyday started from noon, such a lazy life style.

I didn't buy too much stuff for myself. except some games, cheap ones. top spin 2, rager racer 6, halo, fable. I bought two memory cards too, from bestbuy but one of them is not working good now...:( those memory cards are for psp and ds, for Alice in another way. she likes to play Nintendogs, and some cute psp games. I don't usually play those portable consoles that much. What else did i buy? I can't really remember, oh, some gap and club monaco clothing. and a levis denim. these days it was me who always spend money on food, next month i gotta watch out for my cridet card usage.

Alice got that sharp tv for both of us, and she is going to get a nice SUV I like from her uncle. She is a regular girl but she has amazing relatives. Charming.

I love that TV, but it could be better if i buy it myself. I don't really like to get stuff from people, but since it's under her name, I don't mind that much. Anyway, now my ps3 can expose its full power.

I still feel lazy on the second day back to work, and I still sleep late at night, almost 1am every night. this is no good, I should get back to my regular sleep hr asap.

Gotta play some soccer tonite. I felt good last week back to soccer field, but I hate to play with that indian asshole. Tonite i will put on white, ignore him.

Christmas in home

A and B's first ever Christmas tree
Make a wish. hehe
Beautiful isn't it?

Maybe

Maybe a self contained self centralized person like me shouldn't have another one to shwre life with...
I really feel pissed off tonite.

First snow in Halifax in 2006

Well I didn't expect it would come at all and I was screwed totally...
Waiting for the bus for 2 hours and then finally got on the bus and began another 2 hr trip home... well since everyone was experiencing the same thing as i did so i wasn't complaining a lot but still, I don't like winter.

First snow was reminding for me always. I still remember all the old days in Saint Joh, in Fred, and even days I spend in CCSC in Beijing...
The winter that I fought with K, the winter I struggle with S, the winter I went to work with N and G, the winter I drove my own stang with tires from An (I still owe u a lot I know), and this winter... seems like I will be spending my days with A, the girl current I am in relationship with, and the girl I am care about.

Snow...

Got My PS3!!!

It was such a big suprise from my GF. She got me a PS3! Thanks so much Alice.
Quote from Yuan: You are such a lucky bastard.
Yeah he is right, I'm lucky to have you, Alice.

My Wii