the deepest thing in the world

I just can't stop thinking of my friends. They are all my most presures treasure in my life. I can live with out a lover, i mean seriously i can, but i can't suvive without friends for a day.

Now I am in Halifax the bigger town, where I don't have lots of friend I've been with for more than 5 years. I do have Matt and Yuan, they are all super good people. I love them. But friends is a life time long stuff that can't be easily forgot. Like Keeyo and me, 6 years is only like a flash. I still remember all the good times and bad ones as well. I know i am somehow different from ordinary guys, although i am not 100% sure about this myself now, but I know I will love him for my life, as he loves me as his best of the best friend too.

I met with Joe on Saturday night. He is still the same charming boy as in my memory, but things changed around him. i can feel that under his always smiling face, his heart is full of thinking, and some sadness too. I don't know exactly what happened to him while i was gone. He is now with Amanda, and for that, he is isolated by others. Joe is not a bad person, he will never hurt any one he love, but he is frigile inside too. I told him not to be too nice to everyone coz people will ask for more. Try to be a tough one, but be nice to people who love u. It wasn't the first time i heard people say that Joe and I are (looking) similar, I do think me and him share alot of in personality, and i was really happy that he thinks the same too. He could have become Keeyo second if we had enough time together. I think I love you guys too much than I can handle.

I will keep Keeyo and Joe as my best friends ever. True friends are not see though eyes, but hearts. It is the deepest thing in the world.

Feel bad about myself. really really bad

i just know... I am actually one of those people I used to look down upon.

I'm so sorry.

Never forgive myself of doing this.

Chirstmas and New Year vacation is gone

Spend a long vacation in Hfx. Actually this is the first long vacation I spend in hfx. Last time I took a week off went to New York with Matt and Yuan. But it was fun.

I had many friends came over, from Fred and Montreal and Saint John. Parties, shoppings, games...everyday started from noon, such a lazy life style.

I didn't buy too much stuff for myself. except some games, cheap ones. top spin 2, rager racer 6, halo, fable. I bought two memory cards too, from bestbuy but one of them is not working good now...:( those memory cards are for psp and ds, for Alice in another way. she likes to play Nintendogs, and some cute psp games. I don't usually play those portable consoles that much. What else did i buy? I can't really remember, oh, some gap and club monaco clothing. and a levis denim. these days it was me who always spend money on food, next month i gotta watch out for my cridet card usage.

Alice got that sharp tv for both of us, and she is going to get a nice SUV I like from her uncle. She is a regular girl but she has amazing relatives. Charming.

I love that TV, but it could be better if i buy it myself. I don't really like to get stuff from people, but since it's under her name, I don't mind that much. Anyway, now my ps3 can expose its full power.

I still feel lazy on the second day back to work, and I still sleep late at night, almost 1am every night. this is no good, I should get back to my regular sleep hr asap.

Gotta play some soccer tonite. I felt good last week back to soccer field, but I hate to play with that indian asshole. Tonite i will put on white, ignore him.