A and B

A is a nice girl who i kept meeting with during the last few weeks. Yes I am dating her. This news has been spreaded all over my friends in Hfx, even some friends in Fred know this...I don't really want too much ppl to know at this stage coz simply i don't know what is going to happen myself, but anyway, things seem like going to the direction that out of my control. Or...do I wanna control it at all?

All of my friends support me persurading A. Including friends know and don't know my identity. I've been a single (by saying single i mean have no girlfriend) for about four years. I still remember when i broke up with my ex-girlfriend Miranda. She was such an adorable girl. We didn't have many thing in private, and I wasn't care about her too much. Sorry Miranda, I really sorry for what I've done. It's good to leave me anyway... And because of I know who I am and what I wanted during these years, I didn't wanna cover myself with a fake relationship with whoever female, instead I had two boyfriends one after another.

Angus, I still remember the time I spent with you. It wasn't all about happy times, more i can remember than happiness are our fights. It wasn't a nice ending between you and me but it was the right one. You are not a bad person at all, I loved you but I can't afford to live without myself. Xiaojin, we had a short repationship since we are so far apart. It was a crush for me, maybe because I didn't have what i wanted, and you just appear at the right time. U are adorable, affctionite. our relationship would last longer if we did not separate.

Anyway...all have gone. They say things you can't get are always the best ones, as the reason K said about our relationship, and with J. Only one thing you are wrong about me, K. I would never dump you if u don't dump me, although I'm not 100% sure about this myself...

Back to A, I like her alot, and I wanna have someone to share my life. Note, I said someone. I know who I am in bed, but I'm nolonger so picky... being alone is not a good thing all the time. I can certainly enjoy being left alone aside for sometime, but also nice to have one that i can show my care to, and not afraid to let the rest of the world know... A, please don't hold me a inch away, I'm afraid if this goes on, I might lost the motivation I rarely have on girls...

Brian is a good boy. I promise to the rest of the world. If you feel Brian is a cold person and hard to reach his heart, you are wrong about him. He is shy. He is afraid to talk to strangers. He wants someone to hold him like a child.

I almost cried out...
LOVE

Who Do I want?

I am really confused by myself now... I don't even know what do i want, who do i want...

To be frank, I am still the one I used to be, but this doesn't mean I can deny the feeling that I do want to be with someone, even that is a girl... If J or K or even Json can be with me, I would never wanna go fo A. Maybe because I was just being alone for too long.

I feel ashamed of myself, and pity... inside.

Another busy wknd

The game between UNBSJ and UNBF has been held for 4 years. I was there last year, and we were having the best formation we've ever had, but we lost. This time we don't even have enough players in Fredericton and I had to drive back to help, but we got a draw. It wasn't a great result but definitly not a bad one.

Weicheng said I played a good game, and most friends from Fred said I have improved a lot. I really don't know... I used to play a lot in the first two months after I arrived in Halifax, but I haven't been play for a month before, and I had my nail injured... Maybe I am improved indeed...Anyway, that's a good thing.

Gu Ming said he will introduce me that girl I saw in the moon party... I thought about this for quite a lot these days. I know what I was interested in, and it shouldn't be able to change, but the thing is, I might really have some interest in that girl too. Is that because I really want to have someone by my side? Mom asked me about girlfriend for many times, and my grandma, too. I am not old for sure, but maybe it is time for me to get a girlfriend now... I'm a little bit nurvers, afraid, and excited. Now I really don't know who I am...